Tuesday, April 7, 2009
♥ A part of me, I'm missing.
"Count the garden by the flowers, never by the leaves that fall. Count your life with smiles and not the tears that roll."
I feel like a part of me has never been alive,
that part that knows what love is,
the one that i cant find inside,
I ache for that part of me,
the one that's lost, and hiding,
the part that's afraid of loss, the one afraid of dieing.
I can't understand this feeling I have,
a urn, a disire, a intolerable lust, for a thing I have never gotten,
I don't see how i'm living this life that i am, without a part of me so vital,
I should miss it without it being known.
I lay in bed at night,
not comprehending these tears I cry,
My uncouncious mind weeping
for a chance that will never be mine.
It seems so sad that fate should let me,
be born into this life with that part of me i'm missing,
That I should walk this earth alone,
and see what i am lacking,
No matter what i say or do,
it never stops the searching,
the hope that likes to build inside,
before it too comes crashing.
I've tried so hard to understand,
to cope with such a loss,
to lose oneself before it's known,
seems quite an unfair cost.
I feel like a part of me has never been alive,
that part that knows what love is,
the one that i cant find inside,
I ache for that part of me,
the one that's lost, and hiding,
the part that's afraid of loss, the one afraid of dieing.
I can't understand this feeling I have,
a urn, a disire, a intolerable lust, for a thing I have never gotten,
I don't see how i'm living this life that i am, without a part of me so vital,
I should miss it without it being known.
I lay in bed at night,
not comprehending these tears I cry,
My uncouncious mind weeping
for a chance that will never be mine.
It seems so sad that fate should let me,
be born into this life with that part of me i'm missing,
That I should walk this earth alone,
and see what i am lacking,
No matter what i say or do,
it never stops the searching,
the hope that likes to build inside,
before it too comes crashing.
I've tried so hard to understand,
to cope with such a loss,
to lose oneself before it's known,
seems quite an unfair cost.
2:17 PM
