Sunday, February 14, 2010
♥ insomnia
Maybe One Day.
I'll fall in love.
I'll find my soulmate.
I'll reach my goals.
I'll stop worrying.
I'll finally understand.
I'll do something to change the world.
I'll write a book.
I'll have a dream wedding.
I'll finally be happy.
I'll live life to the fullest.
I'll make new friends.
I'll travel the world.
I'll live in Italy.
I'll take a cross country road trip.
I'll have a baby.
I'll be a great mother and wife.
I'll spread the word of God.
I'll find my calling.
I'll learn from my mistakes.
I'll try my hardest.
Maybe One Day....
2:52 AM
Saturday, February 6, 2010
♥ Confused
I'm confused,
And that scares me,
It always does,
I sit and wonder,
"was that the right thing to say?"
"should I of said something different"
I second guess myself,
I know I make poor decisions,
I just can't seem to stop,
I can't fix things,
That scares me even more,
I need to step up,
Embrace my adulthood,
I just want to run to "mommy"
That scares me the most,
I have a peter pan complex,
I never want to grow up,
But I want my own life,
I'm confused,
I'm sorry I've been this way,
I know I need to change,
"are you confused?"
I know I am,
I want you to know something,
I will change one day,
Can you handle that,
Will we still be friends,
Forever we pledge,
But what's forever?
I'm sorry you felt the need to confront me,
I should grow up,
I should accept responsibility,
I have to work through my nerosis,
I have to stop relying on others,
I have to leave NeverLand,
I can do it,
Right?
I'll be ok,
Just let me know you still support me, otherwise,
I'll turn and walk away,
I know this makes no sense,
But it helps me sort through my mind,
I'm sorry if I've confused you,
But welcome to my life!
And that scares me,
It always does,
I sit and wonder,
"was that the right thing to say?"
"should I of said something different"
I second guess myself,
I know I make poor decisions,
I just can't seem to stop,
I can't fix things,
That scares me even more,
I need to step up,
Embrace my adulthood,
I just want to run to "mommy"
That scares me the most,
I have a peter pan complex,
I never want to grow up,
But I want my own life,
I'm confused,
I'm sorry I've been this way,
I know I need to change,
"are you confused?"
I know I am,
I want you to know something,
I will change one day,
Can you handle that,
Will we still be friends,
Forever we pledge,
But what's forever?
I'm sorry you felt the need to confront me,
I should grow up,
I should accept responsibility,
I have to work through my nerosis,
I have to stop relying on others,
I have to leave NeverLand,
I can do it,
Right?
I'll be ok,
Just let me know you still support me, otherwise,
I'll turn and walk away,
I know this makes no sense,
But it helps me sort through my mind,
I'm sorry if I've confused you,
But welcome to my life!
7:30 AM
